The cruelty of his small world was captured and shivering
on the sticky web of the dream. Holes in the endless tumbled buildings,
and eroded faces in the concrete revealed a mood of agony and
loss. He heard something snarl then the grind of teeth became
the squeal of radials spinning through greenish wisps of smog.
 
He saw his wife again -- Janice was dead, gray and splashed with
a violet shading of wine, blood and bruise. A derelict factory
loomed over her like a squat giant. Up in the gloom he saw the
city itself, what it had become -- a soulless monstrosity made
of the smoke and thunder of tarnished industry. A bone-grinder
shaking mechanisms, devouring purposeless humanity.
 
A wall was blocking him, a wall had always blocked him. It was
stone, brick, cement and all the metal of derailed trains and
freeway wrecks. Severed limbs crowned the rubbish heaps at its
base. Tar and blood bubbled in the cracks. It made him think of
every shallow thug he'd ever been up against, all of the nasty
bosses who'd fired him, and every bastard who'd ever insulted
and underrated him. It was nearly everyone. Their faces flashed,
warped and ugly as fresh skin grafts. They were the stopper, they'd
beat him down, turned him into a broken man. There was nothing
left and he thought that maybe his wife had been right in riding
out of it on the bottle.
 
Wind gusted, and he was a giant, carrying all of the rage and
hate of mankind as fury against the wall. Blood ran and flesh
tore as he hammered at it with his fists, but it didn't come down.
It couldn't come down when it was already fallen. All it could
do was boom and amplify the misery like a hollow drum.
 
Jeff awoke on the spit and instantly remembered getting
smashed and walking out of the city. The spit wasn't much better
than the alleyways he'd been sleeping in -- it was a big hook
of land made from garbage and fill and it stretched out into the
lake. It had its share of stunted trees, wildlife and mutant grass.
It also had ground water so poisonous it would eat your flesh
like battery acid.
 
Waking was nearly as bad as dreaming. He was in a hobo roost
and it was early morning, the sun sailing up high and rust-tinted
in the trailing greenhouse exhaust of the distant city. A number
of hobos were passed-out in the dirt and cardboard around him.
On one side there were shabby huts of crate-board, corrugated
tin and cardboard. Thorn bushes and stunted trees were to his
left, gulls squawked directly overhead and across from him was
a pond of industrial waste. In the distance sailboats drifted
on milky Lake Ontario.
 
Licks of sulfur and filaments of silver spun among green bubbles
and strands of foul brown smoke. As he tried to settle his swimming
head he unwittingly focused on a blob of dark mud floating to
shore. He was sure his life was over. He wasn't physically finished
like the bums around him but he was fast on his way. The binges
were getting worse, and he had little to live for anyway. He'd
no property left, a tax debt compounding to mind-boggling numbers,
his wife was buried, his daughter was a hooker, and his son armed
and dangerous on those rare days when he got out. For Jeff the
bottle of life was empty. Now it was time to choke on the dregs
at the bottom, and to be better than the rest. If you knew you
were dead you were better than the others who were too blind to
know.
 
On the shore the lump of mud began to crawl like a worm
and Jeff's negative thoughts vanished as he studied it. Sometimes
it shimmered like a bluebottle fly, and at other moments it was
slime green. It had a way of sliding forward that was quicksilver
smooth and it moved right up to the closest wino - a guy with
a sherry face of popped veins - formed a gross sucker at its front
and glued itself to the man's forehead.
 
For a second Jeff was sure he'd become a hallucinating wetbrain
already, but when the worm oozed in the man's ear the horror of
it became the truth. It wasn't long and the bum's eyes opened.
They were lifeless eyes, a dead-as-maggots stare.
 
The shakes hitting him, Jeff began to rise, but before he was
halfway up a muzzle-flash caught his eye. There was a crack and
a heavy dull thud as the head of the derelict behind him became
the leading edge of a slapping splash of blood and brain matter.
 
Throwing himself to the side, Jeff rolled and crawled off through
frisbee-sized mushrooms. Crushed cans, rotted canvass and heaps
of cigarette butts marked the edge of some thorn bushes, and while
he was screened by them a couple more shots thundered into the
roost.
 
Reaching a mound of iron ore pellets, Jeff moved out of the brush
and tried to spot the gunman. A small dump was beyond the mound
and the killer was on the far side of it, reloading in a patch
of crabgrass. He was blond, Nordic, a bodybuilder wearing brown
slacks and a checked hunting jacket. From his angle he wouldn't
have seen the pond worm in the man's ear, and it was some of the
others he'd shot. That meant he was a pure killer, an off-duty
cop or a vagrant-hater out shooting bums on the spit for Saturday
morning sport; maybe even a Neo-Nazi out for practice.
 
Jeff felt anger convulse, close like a claw in his stomach. The
killer took a new form. He became the embodiment of everything
Jeff hated -- the lucky sophisticated guy who had nothing better
to do than exterminate the unfortunate. A new breed of man that
had emerged a few years back, when kicking the downtrodden became
politically popular. Jeff swore under his breath. He intended
to get even. It would be a final strike at the authority he'd
always hated. It was the one thing he had left -- his belief that
all authority, every man, every system had to be challenged. If
the enemy had taken shape as a killer, then maybe it was because
it had killed his life already.
 
Moving from behind the ore heap, Jeff dashed through the dump,
dodging decaying furniture, rusted drums and spikes of broken
glass and metal. He got halfway across before a huge spring caught
his foot and threw him into the rusted-out hulk of a pickup truck.
 
Hearing Jeff fall the gunman spun around and fired. The slug
hit the wreck with the wham of a heavy metal fist and opened up
the hood like it was the lid of a sardine can.
 
Jeff kept moving, ducking behind wet heaps of cardboard and newspaper,
continuing his advance on the gunman. Two slugs pounded at his
heels then he saw the gunman move to reload. Favoring his weak
leg, Jeff rushed into some bushes, finding cover before the gunman
could trigger again.
 
Rays from the swollen sun glossed the sweat on the gunman's brow.
His expression was intense and he seemed about to lose his cool.
It was obvious that he hadn't expected one of the bums to fight
a war with him. He shuffled around nervously in the crab grass,
looking for his target.
 
Jeff had taken note that his weapon was a three-shooter, and
he began by tossing an empty Five Star sherry bottle. The gunman
fired and shattered it where it landed, then he scratched his
head and moved over into the dump.
 
Positions were now reversed, with the gunman behind a mound of
crushed bricks and Jeff near the patch of grass. It was time to
take a risk; Jeff emerged from the bushes and dived at the edge
of the grass, getting behind a weedy mound as a slug kicked up
sod.
 
Risking it again, Jeff popped his head out. A slug whistled by
and sawed a limb off a dead maple. And that was the three. He'd
have to load another clip.
 
Litter, wind and dust were flying in every alleyway, down the
hard years of Jeff's life. His teeth and jaws were locked bands
of iron. Limping, beaten man that he was he pulled up strength
from discarded dreams, crumpled steel and rust. Jeff was a gaunt
man, a half-crippled man, his face was scarred and creased and
dark with stubble. But it was the eyes that told his story; they
weren't wino dead -- they were white embers, hot with fire from
a life too terrible to think about.
 
It was too late to shoot, so the gunman tried to bash Jeff down
with the barrel, and he found it was too late for that too. Jeff
ploughed into him like a train, thrusting rusted metal into his
belly. It penetrated like the jagged fender of a wreck, then a
hot river poured between his legs and flame was in his eyes as
his intestines spilled out on the spit.
 
Jeff picked up the gun, finding it to be a TAR-HUNT Slug
Rifle. Only a monster would hunt with such a weapon. It was like
killing ants with boulders. Yet it was loaded and Jeff figured
he might need the three shots. He was going back for the poor
guy with the worm eating his brain, to put him out of his misery.
 
There was little to contemplate other than the screech of gulls
and the birthmark-colored clouds slipping over the sun. He was
thirsty and he knew there was no clean water on the spit. He would
have to find a bottle. Then, as he came off the earth path leading
to the roost, he forgot his thirst.
 
Three men had been decapitated by the TAR-HUNT slugs and the
corpses were mounds of raw flesh, crawling with ants and horseflies.
The premature carrion stink was so vile that the roost was impossible
to enter. The other derelicts had fled, four or five of them,
and the guy with the pond worm in his brain was also gone.
 
Scouting for them he doubled around to the far side of the makeshift
huts. Fat drops of blood led up to the ramshackle construction.
A huge peeling Pepsi sign served as a door. It had once been electric,
now it shone with blood traces.
 
Jeff's hunter instinct made him hesitate. He picked up a stone
and heaved it at the side of the hut. There was shuffling on cardboard
and a moan of pain inside the hut.
 
The door began to creak open. Something felt wrong, so Jeff raised
his weapon. A man came out slowly. He was dragging his feet, his
arms hung limp and his entire body was alive with bloodsucking
worms. Only his mouth was clear and it poured with blood and moaning.
 
As the door blew shut, Jeff squeezed the trigger, the kick of
the gun hitting him like a horse hoof. He saw the man's middle
disappear in a whirlpool of violet as he was thrown against the
Pepsi sign. It crumpled easy as tinfoil and the wall fell apart,
a spray of gore and worms shooting in to coat the interior.
 
Gray light washed in and Jeff saw the other bodies, all of them
crawling with worms, except the original one. And he only knew
it by the shoes because the body was now wrapped in a milky web.
 
Shooting would be pointless. Fire was a better idea. He fumbled
for his lighter, and as the silver flashed from his pocket the
webbing on the man's head began to split.
 
A green-purple tentacle waggled out. Blisterlike suckers lined
its underside. It got a hold on the wall and pushed out two more
tentacles, then it pulled itself the rest of the way out. Chunks
of skull fell away and hung on hinges of webbing as it oozed up
the wall. There were six tentacles in all, the man's brain made
the body. It pulsed with several colors of ghastly liquid and
had knobs of varicose veins at the bases of the tentacles. A huge
blister in the center appeared to be a morbid eye.
 
Jeff's teeth chattered. He decided to shoot, but when he raised
the rifle he found that he couldn't will his trembling finger
to pull the trigger. Throwing the gun down he went back to the
lighter and had the same problem again when he tried to start
a fire.
 
The brain worm was now moving toward him -- in the same easy
way it'd moved when it had been tiny. Hate was another set of
tentacles emanating from it. Paralyzing hate. Jeff could feel
its loathing of him -- it was a tangible thing, as real as the
green wisps of poison over the place of its birth. It invaded
his mind, screaming with a power of murderous extermination. Blistered
tentacles shot like lightning to the roots of his soul. Razor
ribbons of pain twisted in his bowels. Burrowing down the creature
found the umbilicus it needed to sever to end his existence.
 
And then a dam burst. Another kind of hate - fire-bright - emerged.
Jeff's hate, his loathing of a world that had robbed, poisoned
and deadened him. All of the angry faces flooded up like a grotesque
bubbling of blood. Their hunger an inner rain of glass splinters
and knives.
 
Jeff heard the creature scream from the pain of it. It had been
about to put a tentacle on his foot. He kicked it away violently
and watched it retreat to the fallen hut.
 
Jeff's heart was thumping, its beat strengthened. The creature
had crawled to the bottom of him and he'd refused to die. Just
like that he could refuse to die for everyone else.
 
Running to the farthest hut he set fire to it with his lighter
and watched as the flames licked up fast. Moving around the huts
he created a circle of flame that quickly grew to a roaring column
of crimson and soot. And he didn't wait around, he turned and
dashed across the spit wasteland, getting a hundred yards before
the screaming of the burning brain worm began. The sounds were
psychic emanations, sharp bone fragments exploding in his head.
 
He stumbled and began to crawl on the lumpy earth, and in time
his mind cleared. The city was ahead and it was like another monster,
with tentacles of smog. He could see that it lived out of death,
greed, envy and hate. Yet his own hate was gone, burned to ashes
with the brain worm. Somehow the creature had saved him, exorcised
him, and his thirst for life had returned. He knew he would go
on to a new life. He would still limp but he'd no longer be crippled
by self-pity and hate.
 
He thought about the worms. If monsters were growing on the spit
it was probably too late to stop it. Something terrible was on
the way. Yet people had let their own inner monsters thrive and
grow, and it was too late to stop that. The brain worms were something
they had earned.
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